Today I choose me,
and that is all.
Elena Tedeschi
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A Memoir

Today I choose me, and that is all.

A story about the kitchen, the roots, and the long way home.

From a girl born in Milan who spent decades shrinking herself to fit two worlds — to a woman who built a life on her own terms. This is the story behind the work. The kitchen. The grief. The Italian summers. The 63-hour labor. The moment in a funeral home when everything changed.

From the Opening

"Today I choose me, and that is all."

Eight simple words. A period. The end. The truth is that arriving at truly embodying those words has been anything but simple.

Choosing myself is the hardest thing I have ever done. Not because the decision itself was complicated. But because everything in my life had been slowly, persistently teaching me that I was not the one who got to be chosen. That wanting things for myself — the big things, the kinds that live in you like a pilot light you can never quite extinguish — was too indulgent, too selfish. A luxury I hadn't yet earned.

I had spent years letting everyone else write my recipe for me. My parents handed me the first draft and society kept it going. Be a doctor, a lawyer, something respectable. Follow the rules. And I kept following it, adding ingredients I didn't choose, cooking a life that looked right on paper but never quite tasted like mine.

But no one was coming to give me permission to flip to a blank page and start over. I had to grant it myself.

Inside the Book

A glimpse at what's inside

01
The Kitchen
Where the noise went quiet. The first place she ever felt completely, unapologetically herself — and what happened when it kept bumping up against who everyone else needed her to be.
02
A Girl Between Two Worlds
Born in Milan, raised in rural Maryland. Always auditioning for an identity that felt just slightly out of reach. The armor she built and called humility.
03
The Parentified Child
How she became her mother's partner without anyone planning it. The cost of carrying everyone else's stability — and what she would blow up rather than simply ask for help.
04
Wounded Healers & Deferred Dreams
Becoming a therapist to help others find what she hadn't yet found herself. Browsing culinary schools at night like she was doing something shameful.
05
My Nonno
A painter who picked up a brush in his seventies. What a funeral in Italy taught her about waiting — and what she decided she was done waiting for.
06
Scorched Earth
She quit her master's months from finishing. A volcanic eruption in Iceland grounded her flights. Sometimes you have to clear the ground before something new can grow.
07
The Seeds of Well Rooted
The name came in the shower, Alicia Keys blasting, when she finally stopped trying so hard. How a practice found its shape — through every iteration that stripped away what didn't fit.
08
Tom & The Egg
Fifty years old. Never been in a kitchen. What happened when someone finally cleared the space and stepped back — and what it revealed about what all of us actually need.
09
The Sidewalk
A Brooklyn morning, a stroller, the dirty concrete, and the moment community saved her when strategy couldn't. The friend who is still one of her closest, ten years later.
10–11
The First Birth & Wanting to Escape
63 hours. A wound that quietly infected everything after. A woman on a subway holding her tears in, watching the Central Park stop go by every morning.
12–13
Putting Herself Back Together & The Redo
The rebuilding that happened in layers. A second birth where a team remembered — and the warmth of finally not having to brace anymore.
14–15
Il Dolce Far Niente & Tutti a Tavola
An Italian summer. A business that ran without her. The sweetness of doing nothing — and an invitation to come to the table exactly as you are.
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